A month??

To be exact, more than a month since I'm in England.

So to answer most people's question. "How are you? How is the workload? How is the university?" I'll answer them now!

So how are you.

I'm okay. Been through a rough patch recently, came out of it largely unscathed. I wished I could be more apathetic, but I'm still far too humane, detaching does work, until it stopped working. And i crashed. But the worst storm is over I hope, and I smiled through it.

How is the workload?

Insane. It is just overwhelming. Reading books after books. I just lost count. 10 books in the reading list for an essay seems pretty normal now, 2k words essays do not feel as intimidating as they used to be. Supervisions are beginning to be fun, and they did provoke me to think more, not taking assumptions for granted.

So what do I have to do.

Basically just 4 essays, 1 math and 1 stats per fortnight for supervisions. Add that to lectures ( which their own sets of reading lists, I just couldn't afford to read them. =( ) So yeah, overwhelming just seem like an appropriate adjective for now.

I did play, of course. I play hard, but I worked harder. 40 hours of reading per week seems pretty crazy to me. But most people would at least do a 6 every day. I can't imagine anyone else get by without doing that much work. You simply couldn't.

How is university?

The environment here is amazing, the vibe is just great! I was fascinated by the pictures before, but pictures could never do this place justice. The whole atmosphere, architecture, people are just so amazing. Colleges are so separated and yet so integrated into the whole system. It is hard to explain. I really love this place. I'm going to try their formals oh yeah !

So, in conclusion, university is really different. I still feel dumb and at times I felt that they made a mistake by offering me a place. I am not going to lie and say everything is smooth and sunny here. Everything is different. I no longer have lecture notes to depend on. Textbooks doesn't really help as much as before. There isn't a standard "text" to fall back onto. There is argument to every intellectual thought, and I am not used to that system. Taking sides after evaluating books and giving them a good summary are not my forte. The books might not help the essay writing directly, but just summarizing them is a tough job, maybe not to others. Grasping the big picture is my flaw. I accumulated facts, but they don't fit into my puzzle. So it gets pretty stressful. I just feel that I'm not well equipped for all these. Then again, I'm here to learn, and I hope that after 3 years, I'll read this post and say......

I'm glad I felt that way, but I've changed.

So :) I'll be strong. But all of you must be strong too. Life is too short to be sad.