Habit / Reliance / Need

Having something or someone fixed in a routine is almost parasitic for me. I'm a relatively boring person, so it rarely change. There grows reliance, and its normal for me. When things change, and of course thats how the world operates, often giving us what we need and then void of that, so we appreciate them when they are harshly or perhaps gradually taken away from us? Carpe diem is all I can say .. and what I've learnt. However I know that I don't NEED them to be there. There comes the conscious attempt to cancel them out totally before it gets to me ( okay.. by this time it had already gotten to me, I know. Preemptive measure? ) I'm glad to be who I am today. Ordinary. I have my dreams, and career aspirations. I have my downfalls and misery. I am imperfect yet happy in my own skin. I am very very grateful.

Money was once a very important aspect, of which I associate success with. But I grew up and understood that happiness , ultimately is what i'm looking for in life. So what are you looking for?