Angsty

So A levels had come to an end. A moment that I had cherished. Vatful of memories to be treasured and stored in a special place. Feeling a bit sentimental here, as I felt a chunk of my life was harshly separated from me. Graduation is a happy event, but I feel an unending hollowness, where you just hear a dull thud in your heart. Not enough to stab or hurt that much. I have to admit, I do not feel the same way after graduating from high school because I know I'll still meet them often and life goes on. College however impact me in a such an unexpected way. I'll probably not meet them for years. For the majority of them, however, I'll get to hang out with when I drop by London for the weekend. Its still different. I used to hang out so much with you, him, her, them. Going to college to study even though we had nothing to do on that particular day. Sharing private moments. Those that we wouldn't share with strangers. Nonchalantly chatting and talking about nothing at all. I do miss those days. So much.

Leaving Malaysia, is another hard decision to make, but not one to be hurried as I still need my results. In approximately 60 days, I'll find out if I'll go to the University of my choice. Meanwhile I have to find a cause to occupy my 90+ days left in Malaysia. Ah, its pretty short if its dissected in this way.

Feeling completely useless and intimidated. I have no skills, talents whatsoever. I'll be content being a nobody, but I know I don't have a choice. Reacting to my friend's comment " You are NOT JOINING the orchestra in C?" . Well, yea..I'm not bringing my violin there. *smacks face*

Where everybody expects everyone else to be a genius. However, I am who I am. I'll make most out of it =)

P.s. This is not an emo post. I'm good. Heading for camp afterwards.